Seeking…

Days drifting,

As sands breeze by the shore,

Sun setting,

Moon rising,

Life taking its course,

Rhythm making,

Coasting along the winds,

Life dreaming,

Love sleeping,

Whispers shaking within,

Alone in the cast of shadows,

Forgotten songs of prisons afar,

Wondering when,

Wondering how,

Wondering why it’s gone this far.

Please...Don't

Don’t tell me it was the alcohol that made you lie,

Don’t tell me it was the alcohol that kept you from trying,

Don’t tell me it was the alcohol that made you forget the time,

Don’t tell me it was the alcohol that made you deny it,

Don’t tell me it was the alcohol that put you in this place,

Don’t tell me it was the alcohol that you can’t remember what happened,

Don’t tell me it was the alcohol that made you get up and fight,

Don’t tell me it was the alcohol that put bruises on her face,

Don’t tell me it was the alcohol because that’s not the truth,

The alcohol only enhanced what you already wanted to do,

Gave you the excuse to break all the rules,

Now you want sympathy for things you chose to do,

The alcohol didn’t convince you to pick up the glass,

The alcohol didn’t keep you saying “ok, this is my last”

The alcohol didn’t make you do anything it was all you,

So don’t tell me it was the alcohol,

While were in the hospital praying she pulls through.

He Cries

Raindrops stream down the window Pane,

As he looks beyond in a trance,

Where did he go wrong he can’t understand,

What happened yesterday cannot be erased,

Why, oh why can’t he change his ways,

Make confessions a reality instead of a dream,

Unfortunate of how his life is playing,

Going further into his mind as he battles the pain,

Unsure how to begin again,

Trying to stand up after falling,

Tears streaming down his face,

Can’t remember love after causing so much grief,

How can he come back to truth with falsehood surrounding?

How can he open up with honesty forgotten?

Lost in his thoughts as people stare,

Hesitant to turn around and face them in tears,

The past once the present seems surreal,

Even though time moves forward he’s stuck in place,

His mind fighting to become his peace,

As smiling faces whisper through their teeth,

He’s completely lost on how he will live on,

Cold is all he feels as grey skies cover his faults,

Warm hugs embrace him as he puts up a front,

Feeling like a young boy who just woke up from a bad dream,

But only worse because his nightmare is a reality,

As raindrops stream down the window pane,

His secret tears are carried into rivers unclaimed.

Please Don’t Leave

Staring out the window,

The day so clear,

It was time to change,

 The path I was living,

abandoning my soul left me empty,

feeling the darkness start to consume me,

being convinced by the shaytan’s whispers,

“It’s ok; it’s not that bad,

This is a little sin; you could be doing so much worse.”

Knowing that fuel was taking me further away from my Lord,

I had to return to Him,

But was I to far gone?

Feeling as though my Lord was leaving me to fend on my own,

I knew I would lose completely if I kept going on,

But where would I start?

How could I face Him now?

Full of shame from the things I’ve done,

I knew I had to try,

For the truth I could no longer ignore,

Desperate and aching,

My soul crying and begging for Allah not to leave me alone,

I needed a release, but where to began,

Shaytan’s whispers soothing my vain desires,

Saying “listening to music never hurt no body,”

Oh beware of the cunning instruments,

It will take you places you never knew exist,

First you’re in the privacy of your home,

Then you’re in the car swaying to the tunes,

Then a conversation about your favorite jam,

Next it’s a club, and you’re wondering

“Now how did I get here?”

And then you get home and reality hits,

What did you do to become so disobedient?

But don’t lose hope,

This is your chance,

This is that clear day where change can began,

Make your wudu, make your intentions,

There’s still time to ask for forgiveness,

To not revert back to that which you did,

But say that’s it, I know my Lord is forgiving,

So turn to Allah, and He will turn to you,

Don’t let Shaytan convince you,

that you’ve done too much wrong for Allah to answer you,

Allah say’s remember me, and I’ll remember you,

Ask me for forgiveness, and I will forgive you.